Dear Oscar- 26 April 2017

My darling boy, a month since you have left us. I still feel so empty everyday thinking of you, missing you, wishing you were here.

Life has moved on since that fateful day in March but my heart and mind hasn’t. I still think of that day back in December when i discovered i was carrying you, how happy i was to be your mum.

Yet months later, being your mum and not having you in my arms is causing me so much heartbreak. I know that there’s nothing i can do to bring you back, but i hope that wherever you are you know that you were, are and will be forever loved my darling.

Forever in my heart,

Your mummy




Feeling hopeful

Dear Oscar

Today has been one of those days where despite the pain of missing you, I can feel hopeful about the future.

You have brought your daddy and I so much closer and I know that even though you are not physically with us, you fill our lives everyday single and are in both our thoughts.

For the first time today, I feel that there is a way to move forward with our lives. I know that one day we will be able to have the chance at holding your baby brother or sister. We will always keep your memory alive.

I miss you my darling and wish you were here but I know you are watching over us